to all the people who laughed, said no, and didnt get it, for the rejections that ranged from polite to blunt, for those who thought a math major with dyslexia that wanted to be an artist was silly, for the not right now's and the no way in hells thank you thank you thanks for the pain it strengthened my game, you can google me any time  its ok, it wasnt for you anyway and im still smiling