My name is Sara, I have 18 (almost 19 years) and I am a fan of Justin Bieber to death (although some now say that I am a real Belieber) I am a girl with a very low self-esteem. I do not value anything I do and I have to embarrass myself. I have not always been so. I had my steps. When I was tiny, I was a super girl smiling, pleasant and remained so until you get to school. All went well until the children started to laugh at me I look. I called around, ugly, fat, walrus, and even monster. This all added to that with 6 years old, my mom tube breast cancer and nearly died. I took panic hospitals and much fear of death. With only 6 years old I fell into a deep depression from which I took out 4 years. From 6 to 10 añitos I was a girl without a smile. When my mother got over it, I regain that beautiful smile that characterized me and I became interested in life. The music around me since I was born, is my life. Since I was born, still barely walking, I remember, I dance, play the tambourine and singing (only 2 years old and half) and learn by myself how to play instruments such as tambourine, percussion and various instruments of music of my country. At 8 years old my mother began to set in I saw a violin on TV and I'd like crazy and decided to sign up for violin lessons. The school was an excellent student but something went wrong. Besides music, I love my sport and ever since I can remember, instead of playing with girls with dolls I played football and also why insulting me and saying derogatory tormented in various stage of my life of 8 to 13 years marked me too. I tried to go unnoticed and continue my studies in school (which I was going very well), violin, dancing, singing, my groups and so on. The day came when I was 12 my mother talked to my violin teacher and is told that I had much future in music and I got involved and, in a professional conservatory. My mother did. I started in 2006 at the conservatory and went really well. I was 12. Approving all, was smiling again, I had my best friends were and are great ... but ... there is always a but. I was still somewhat chubby and never considered myself beautiful or that my body was no good and which kids and noticed me, and if they did wrong was to try calling around ... thus my self-esteem was always on the floor. I was always very amorous and not surprisingly suffered very much in love. Well, back to the topic of music ... With the violin I was great, but made a fatal accident last year, unfortunately for me, I had to leave. My right shoulder due to a fall when he was 7 years old, was losing strength and I left the site every few minutes, preventing it could play my favorite instrument. I dropped my soul to the floor watching my dream of music faded away, until one day than I was playing the violin began to sing songs from my favorite band and singing teacher at the conservatory he heard me. My singing is more what I like most in this world and with which this teacher spoke to me and offered me the opportunity to do the test to get into singing and continue my musical dream. And I did, I have two years singing at the conservatory. As for my normal life, 14 years my mother left me to sign up for the football team of my childhood who always went to see parties of men and 5 years I have been playing football on that computer. You may ask, then from age 13 all is going well, removing the problems of your shoulder does not? unfortunately it does not ... I had my grandmother (my dad's mom) with which I had a link too special since she was born the same day as me and took me exactly 70 years. Every Friday since I was 10 I went to School and I went home to eat and spend the afternoon together. In 2006 made a bad fall that broke her hip and her health deteriorated dramatically ... I prayed daily to God and the virgin for my grandmother did not die, but to no avail, the July 16, 2007 my grandmother died, and part of me went with her. As it was the first person to die close to my I broke down, and my smile and my faith in God completely vanished ... I went back to being the girl without a smile ... I took a total phobia wakes and cemeteries ... You will say, is a law of life that someone dies, it is normal if it was greater, not that you stop having faith. And I say, I know my grandmother is in heaven watching over me, but the summer of 2009 I was already exceeding what my grandmother and had with me my two best male friends, Sam and Roy in August 2008 I lost them both. On August 7, Sergio I left because I went on vacation to the beach and he had to stay a few days to help his dad. He promised to call me and everything else. On 7 and 8 and 9 called me by tomorrow. But from there I called again, and I could not know anything about him because I had no internet / computer, or the number of their parents or anything. I went on my vacation and I bought a few things (my best friend) and Roy was with me always. But to my great misfortune, on August 27, Roy and I, along with other friends went to parties in a neighboring village. We returned at 7 am and I left him the next day would go down to the beach. An hour later I receive a message from him with a phrase that always take heat taxed. I ran down the street and there I found it. On the ground, pale and surrounded by his blood. Yes, one of my best friends, almost like my brother had committed suicide ... That same day I learned that a drunk driver killed my other best friend on 9 August. Tell me, in those moments where was God? I thought. For me it was the biggest blow of my life, my two best friends were like me. There I lost all my desire to move on .... That was the worst year of my life since a few months before losing my two best friends, I was about to lose most of my life, my father, for throat cancer. I was already in tatters ... but I was reacquainted with an old friend and had a relationship with him which made me happy for 1 month and little else. Then he left me and humiliated me. Again destroyed. In August, along with Roy, he had met a boy, Santi with which kept other relationship of two months, which supported me with the whole issue of Roy and Sergio ... but then again old friend came in my life, and I turned to love him. Santi was furious and one day out of the conservatory, I pulled a portal, cornered me and tried ... good if you're thinking that .... I thank a guy out at the time and Santi escaped, but the marks on my wrists and bruises on my legs were ... portal that guy saved me ... There were charges against him and won. A restraining order from where I live at least 5 km and quiet ... But this tranquility was short-lived as my ex-boyfriend was pissed with me and after 4 years have already passed this I see and I almost spit out and I get the worst the site going and know that I know. I fell back into depression, and between workouts football (3 hours weekly), the walk to everywhere, and anxiety and depression that I lose sleep and hunger, went down in 2 months, 24 kilos of weight ... This all took me to a tremendous degree of mental letdown that led me to try to do something crazy and that if not for you, I probably would not be here. I live in a family house on the 2nd floor. I was in my room studying, and the computer got a list of slow songs, sad as it was my mood. But my head is scratched so much that I drove you to madness. I walked barefoot on the balcony of my room and without thinking I leaned on the railing ... at the time, something made me reconsider ... in that playlist was put the song "Down to earth." Look no author or anything i just dip when I was listening. That song reminded me that there was someone still wanted me here and that I needed. I still do not know the meaning of that song for you, did not even know who you were. But for me, saved me. Shortly after I started working at a primary school teaching dance to children ages two and a half to seven years, and there I met you, Justin Bieber, since they came always singing "Baby." Following this recovers a little smile and I became your fan. Sounds pretty unbelievable the whole story, but people already know and lived with me this and I can verify. My happiness started dating again and on April 27, 2009 when I met Diego which took more than two years of dating and an extreme love him. He supports me and helps me in everything and try that every day my smile back, but after my life I can hardly get up every day and see that I have neither my father nor my grandmother, or Sergio or Roy ... My dad did not die, but more than a year ago my mother home made and from that my whole world went black. I continue to sing, play the violin at home, work, study, play soccer, I dance, I go to music lessons, my life is very crazy to avoid that I think about my past but I can not. Many days I find the decline because of this. My head starts to think about my past and I collapsed. For me, you, is a model for how could you overcome the separation from your parents and fulfill your dream. In some ways I identify with you because my dream is music, my parents are separated (only recently surpassed anything that I do not because since they parted, my mother hates me because I am financially and morally to my father and this is serious, I fatal hates and treats me makes me carry all the weight that carries a house, food, washing, ironing, cleaning, studying, working, playing sports ...) and because I will not stop until you get to make my dream a reality is the singing and let the world know my lyrics ... As I am stuck in so much, I know many people but I can not trust anyone. I have few real friends. True friends ... Everyone says I'm crazy, I'm nutty because I have true admiration for a singer smaller than me. Many criticized me and harassed me, I putearon and laughed at me and admire my own teachers and support you and defend you in any way whatsoever. Y or do I regret. Although who am your fan though, Belieber, I will support you in everything you do. When you fall between all the supportive comments I receive will be me, but when something seems wrong I'll tell you even though you probably will not read it or Take it finds. For you, I entered the world of twitter and through that I met so many wonderful girls, 2 of them are like my sisters but live in different cities, one of them, that why I insist that you both follow from your official Twitter account, @ luzBieberLove, has traveled more than 700 km to meet me and then I've gone to meet her. In this letter I write, could not fail to tell you about her because she is my best friend, my sister, my confidante, and all thanks to you, because thanks to the common admiration we have for you, I got to meet a true friend as no ... she, knowing the importance of the song "Down to earth" for me, the concert given in Madrid on April 5, took some photos of yourself for me, playing that song for me feel a little closer to you. Thanks to your insistence on twitter follow me and thanks to you I have the best friend I could ever want ... This is not to give nor sorrow, nor feel sorry or anything like that. By this I let you know that, thanks to you I'm still here and to have found you and your music has been one of the best things that happened to me in life. Justin, I know that whatever happens, for better or for worse, here in Galicia (Spain) you will always have a fan / Belieber you owe your life and that's always going to support in whatever is . Thanks Justin, thanks for doing what you do and I hope this letter will help Canada continue to be that guy we all fell in love with his lyrics. Glad to be your fan / Belieber and hopefully someday I can meet you face to face and thank you in person. A kiss and a big hug. #realBelieber <3 … Sara**